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| Fair 'nuff, it just seems that you "go over the top" pretty often. You might want to think about that a bit next time you feel yourself going over the edge. |
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| i guess ill take jonnys apology to aaron about going over the top accountable for me being a degrading *******. Its all good though, no one takes this serious. |
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| Aye, I think I should. xP I've noticed I've been a bit... aggressive on FFR lately, without even meaning to. I think it's because I'm still kinda disappointed in being, basically, stabbed in the back by Mazen, all that while ago. You know? Makes me kinda... I dunno. x.X; You know what I mean. |
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| It was pretty crappy, yes, but if you'd been acting like you were the past two months or so, you'd have been de-staffed anyway. Keep in mind though, without Nick and Mazen FFR wouldn't even likely exist right now, which would mean you wouldn't have a staff position in the first place. (Granted, had I come along earlier I'd probably have had the technical skills to restore the board myself, but it'd have taken longer 'cause I'm a lazy ****er). |
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Ah, but if I haden't have been stabbed in the back, then I wouldn't have this attitude. That's the point. Because I'm not being like this anywhere else; just here. And I know Nick and Mazen saved FFR, but I sometimes wish they didn't even bother. I think I would have probably preferred it to have stayed down... but that's selfish, and I shouldn't really think of myself.
Meh. xP I'm probably sounding like a spoilt child not getting his own way, but I really don't mean to sound that way. I'm still peeved about it; and it doesn't help when Mazen was giving me a serious lecture the other day about how he doesn't even give a crap about FFR anyways -- that kinda pissed me off too. Because... I really do care about FFR, and I think he's mistreating it in so many ways, which really pisses me off.
That's the only logical answer I can give for being an ******* lately. |
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Mazen might not really give a crap about FFR, but I think to his credit he's finally realised how much other people do, which is pretty much why I'm guessing he handed the reins over to Kirstin. It could be better right now - I don't deny that at all - but it's a hell of a lot better than it was when I joined, with everyone at each other's throats. There's actually, for the most part... peace.
From what I know about your de-staffing, it's certainly something that shouldn't have happened... but it's pointless to hold grudges over things that happened long in the past, I find. 'Snot worth it. There's probably other sides of the story that I haven't heard too. |
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The thing that annoyed me the most, was how he destaffed Rei and myself, saying that there was nothing the admins could do to help right now. But then later assigned Megan and Kirstin to administration spots. I think that's when my assholish attitude spawned. At the second that everything I've done for FFR was spat back in my face. xP I mean, Mazen even watched me code the layout back to normal and everything, but once he got everything he wanted from me, he threw me aside. I thought that was pretty ****ing harsh.
But yea, I shouldn't hold grudges. I shouldn't... but I do. I'm not the kind of person to forgive people for things like that. It's like Jon... I still have grudges against him, and it's been over a year since I had any real contact with him. xP He'd have to literally become my best friend before I even thought about forgiving him. That's just who I am.
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Ah, but if I haden't have been stabbed in the back, then I wouldn't have this attitude. That's the point. Because I'm not being like this anywhere else; just here. And I know Nick and Mazen saved FFR, but I sometimes wish they didn't even bother. I think I would have probably preferred it to have stayed down... but that's selfish, and I shouldn't really think of myself.
Meh. xP I'm probably sounding like a spoilt child not getting his own way, but I really don't mean to sound that way. I'm still peeved about it; and it doesn't help when Mazen was giving me a serious lecture the other day about how he doesn't even give a crap about FFR anyways -- that kinda pissed me off too. Because... I really do care about FFR, and I think he's mistreating it in so many ways, which really pisses me off.
That's the only logical answer I can give for being an ******* lately.
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Taken and accounted. No hard feelings son. |
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It's easier to change oneself than you think. I've been forced to do it several times. It might be harder at an earlier age though; I hear the brain is still going through some pretty complex changes in the teenage years.
I don't think anyone sane would argue that the manner in which you were destaffed wasn't ****ty, at least from what everyone knows. |
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